Junebug.
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If only you could see it too.
On another note. I have decided that one day out of each week will fast. Good detox considering my diet has been stinky. Not sure on the day yet. But I need to get my eating back in control, then I shall feel not so stressed and in control. I feel disjumbled when my eating is out of shape.
Hmmm. OH My parents are coming in tomorrow I am stoked. So much fun is too come. If only I didnt have two huge homeworks due on sunday night :(
Hahaha went to petco with my friend and her bf. We went to the dog bed section looking for her dog and they took one out and told me to lay in it. Then proceeded to tell me to get in the shelves and lay in a bed to take a picture. I refuse to let that last one up but I always have fun when I am with her.
Half human, Half machine.
Just watched Never let me go.
So disturbing, and I really hope that type of thing doesnt exsist still today, I shall research into it. But, by the end of the movie, like a few tend to do (and some songs) I did alot of thinking and realizations. Silly things I wished would come true, or things I wish I could resolve, but cant. Because there is no point, no chance, nothing. I know the answers, I know the outcome of it. Its so silly how things can seem so real to you in your head and completely out of the question outside. I tell myself, life is too short. Dont waist it on lost words, or regrets say it/do it. Or waist it on silly junk food you only live once enjoy it. But I have on the other hand, dont say it, it could ruin everything you have, or eating junking food will make you feel louzy and shorten your life. I hate the indecisivevness of life and trying to figuere everything to only discover by the time youve figuered it all out its too late.
I want to enjoy life, but its hard to do when half the outcomes are rejections/negatives. I guess I should look at it in a more positive way, but I cant help but to always think of something in the back of my head that I wish would just resolve and go away. I want to say it, I want to do it. but it just doesnt work out that way.
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On another note. My car is gone, have talk of renting a home with sarah and some others, my brother has returned home, and I ate my feelings today haha. Work is busy and school is bleh. Coming home to a snuggle in my bed and someone wanting to know how my day was would be nice, no complaints. Just would be lovely. I need to focus on school. This will be a successful semester. Ive made that promise to myself. I will succeed. I have to prove it to myself.
Ive been so busy
Work is crazy, and stressful, and mainting a good diet is hard while working. Hot tub though to unwind for the night! I have tomorrow off so lets see if I get things done. Going to the green belt for sure though
